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d40earlier today, i recieved a text, telling me that someone at church saw some pics of me on facebook, that needed to be discussed, my first thought was what? hahah really, cause i thought for a second and i know, that i havent done anything wrong, and then i began to second guess my self… but knowing that i didnt do anything wrong, i wondered what these pics were of….a couple of weeks ago i went to a very small oyster cook out, at a friends house, and everyone there was having a drink or so, A. everyone there was over 21 or 21, that was drinking… turns out, me not looking at my pictures hard enough noticed, a beer or so in the pics, also noticed these beers look like they are close to me, and maybe even looked like they could be mine, especially to someone that wasnt there…. my first thought was wow, even though i know i dont really need to clear this up, cause they werent mine, was crap what are the high school/middle schoolers going to think, for all they know im at a party gettin drunk, cause alot of the pics were of me jumping up and acting crazy like i always am…

but to a youth, who knows what they are thinking, then again to my small group whom, i talk about drinking and partying, how i say its in my past, what they must think i am a hipocrit i am..even though i wasnt being one, i am at a place in my life where its feels good to say no, or to be the only one at a party not drinking or a bar, i dont need to drink to have a good time, i dont need to drink to be socialable, i dont need a drink to be “cool”… but anyways

just being in ministry and especially wanting to pursue a career in youth ministry has been making think about more things, that i normally dont think about, like being in pictures with alcohol in it, and it not even be mine… where as a normal or whatever person would not think twice, i know now i have to, not because i live this secret life that nobody needs to know about, its that i dont want people to get the wrong idea of me, think that i am doing something i am not, like drinking…

ahh, today i was soo mad at myself, and was such a good life lesson, that the people god has called into ministry he has for a reason, and wants us to be extra careful about life situations, because we could be leading somone into the wrong path…. that always makes me alittle nervous about ministry, about leading people the wrong way or making think something i didnt mean… the more you know the more you will be judged says the bible, and the leaders will be judged more aswell…but that will never stop me, just motivate me to say and do the right thing, as much as i can!

ministry is tough, hard, obviously not as easy as some people think, a constant stretch on how you think you should live your life(ha), but in the end sooooooooo rewarding! how cool is it that God has placed you in a role to bring people closer to Christ???!!!!??? though being a volunteer at seacoast, i dont think i have ever been so stretched in my life, doing things i never thought i would a year ago, and will continue to go that way forever, aslong as I stay wanting to be radical for Christ, which I WILL!

so i thought i would share this, maybe to clear some stuff maybe in your hear about me, but mainly to express what i learned today…thank you for reading, comment if you want to!

love,

eric

 

“JESUS IM READY TO COME HOME!!!!!” UNDEROATH

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December 23, 2008 Posted by | Uncategorized | 5 Comments

Random Thoughts

randomthoughtstoday i went from a super high working at church today to a super low coming home to a filthy house! these days man just blow your mind, its cause, and when i really think about it, when i came home i really didnt invite the lord with me to the house, i got mad and i guess like the feeling cause i havent been mad in awhile so i decided to stay that way… why i dont know why…

sometimes when you are mad, it just feels good to be mad sometimes, to let alot of built up emotion out… but today i was thinking about alot of paradox’s and just random thoughts about dating/life and what not….

Less is more

Die to yourself to be reborn

we put our trust and hope sometimes in in-permanent things, when our hearts are only made for the one permanent thing

God is everywhere, but he is nowhere (did that just blow your mind)

 

dating wise: you know sometimes when you hear someone say I am over that person… but if they tried to date one of my friends, i would be soo mad… hmmm does this really mean you are over that person? no… cause if you were over that person you wouldnt care who they dated even if they were your friend, and if that person you used to date is now or was or is a good person then you should be happy they would date one of your friends, cause you know both people and im sure they are both good… im not saying im saying this about one person, im saying this about myself.. i said this to one person one day, and i realized i wasnt completely over one person while i was saying it, cause the thought of them dating one of my friends would be weird and freaked me out… which caused me then to surrender it to the lord….. this came out of me, when someone asked me a question, i love when you find yourself preaching to yourself.. hahaha

 

this weekend was good, i got to preach at nitro(middle school service) people downstaires heard me gettin kinda loud and crazy on stage! that made me smile more than anything! i love being crazy and basically being my self on stage… and i love the feeling when the lord completely takes over my body, and i get off stage and wonder what the heck just happened or what i said.. haha.. but as my mentor tells me, thats when the lord really is using you, cause it really isnt you.. haha.. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE what the lord has called me to do with my life! sometimes i doubt it and sometimes i get scared about it, but i know what it is, and i love doing it, its only myself self that doubts myself and not God, cause he created me and loves me, and knows what makes me happy, and thats being on stage telling people about jesus!

this is always the part in my blogs that i wonder what the heck im talking about and pray that God take over my hands like he always does, when i type on here…

small group tonight was amazing! only two people showed up, but it was the two he selected to be there! it gave us a chance to get alittle deeper then usual, just cause i dont know, all of us in our group are ADD to the max and the ones that dont have ADD get ADD by just being in the group like a disease, ha… CS Lewis is soo good….he said something like what we read tonight… that god made human, and God is the fuel, and we are the engines… we need him in order to run correctly, we can sometimes put stuff in our engines that sort of run ok, but most of the times dont run at all, unless we put fuel(jesus) into our engines(bodies)… love it.. i think the way he said it was better but thats what i remember off the top of my head.. ha..

Groundswell tomorrow night, cant wait, doing a skit, i wrote(with brittany), i think its going to be pretty powerful and depressing, showing people that they arent the only ones in the world that their family is like this all the time and especially at CHRISTmas… also made a rediculous video, 3 wisemen(a raptor, a creepy king, and a 22 year old jesus, chocolate) may not be the most biblical groundswell short we have done, but then again which one is haha..

ok im done… but thank you for reading this whomever you are, please leave me a line or something…

Also, if people from a particular church are turning you away from Jesus Romans 3:10 “As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one……. no one is perfect, the only one that ever was on this earth was jesus, and he died for you to wash away your sins, and to give you life to save you, that is the only formula, all other theories are wrong

December 17, 2008 Posted by | Uncategorized | 3 Comments